SUNDAY, JULY 29, 2012

Ann’s Multiple System of Inside people

Ann’s Multiple System

Annemarie – Annemarie – (birth to age 16) core part keeper of our soul, often depressed and fantasizes death and suicide, anxious and tense, most responsible for over-weight, had a good relationship to paternal grandmother, becomes overwhelmed, sensitive to noise, secretive, easily disappointed, centered on self and her privacy, likes to sit or lay very still, has abuse nightmares, slow, has trouble leaving house

Jessie – (eighteen years to ageless) first truly independent part, left for school and travel to Norway, sense of power and purpose, idealist, adventurer, sprite and relies on Marie, role definer, self-reliant, sense of a broader humanity, guides our future and ambitions including the writing, loves to make things by hand, watches over Sarah and Henry

Ayn – (seventeen years to 52 years) created to present best “integrated” part, registered for college, writing/some editing, team leader, best mixed of all the parts together, counselor, early interest in psychology and human development, will discuss internal parts with Corey, smooth over system presentation to a public world, finds it easy and fulfilling to take care of people

Kate – (sixteen years to 52 years) created to capstone formal intellectual needs of high school and college, leadership roles, writing/heavy editing, boss role, commanding, decision-maker, holds higher expectations, likes to take vacations, pragmatic, chief financial officer, goal setter, and watches over Anniemi, non-sexual

Ann – (fourteen years to 52 years) created to negotiate high school socially and emotionally, somewhat needy, holds lower expectations, Mom, wife, patience, but more unsure of herself, unconditional love and understanding (especially when frustrated), wants a home and to be married, nurturer, feels guilty for not being good enough or deserving, handled parents and marital separation and divorce

Kelsie – (twelve years to 38 years) created to help things that were going wrong, nervous, work gas station handle light bookkeeping, cash register, payroll and customers, endurance and giftedness, handled mental illnesses obsessive, anxious, compulsive, night owl, hardest worker, natural intellectual ability, service orientated, in charge of CARF accreditation

Jamie – (eleven years 45 years) created as a response to early sexual cues with same age kids, some of the writing/organizing, stats, least amount of trust for outside world, charts etc. helps with younger parts when they are dealing with outside world, dry humor, will help Kate with money tasks, easily annoyed, she is bi-sexual, toughest of us, was athletic before weight gain and smoking

Corey – (ten years to 42 years) responded to depressive withdrawn years after the “real” Sarah died, will do basic journalistic writing, serious, first babysitter, can get overwhelmed and confused, most introverted, relies on Marie, likes to summarize, thinks often about hiring help, asks questions, and loves cuddling on rainy days with friend or book

Sarah – (eight years 32 years) held first spontaneous school/scout friendship but friend Sarah died, holds our faith, happiness and humor, creative, watches younger parts while older parts are working, keeps health and safety balanced, playful, is sunny and loves the outdoors, loves the recorder and singing, most imaginative, likes to take pictures

Lissa – (seven years to 25 years) receiver of “punishments,” does not talk, very isolated, and shows signs of neglect, responsible for interest in learning, and does a lot of research, books, and library, biggest reader, very curious and loves to learn, tied with Ann for wanting house, plays and enjoys music, enjoys especially the piano, will feed Corey lists, likes going out to eat with the Casies, loves to drive, will use self-destruction to get system to hospital rather than take a chance on suicidal behavior

Henry – (six years to 32 years) our early “runner” to avoid abuse and later cross country skier, non-sexual, only male in system, idea man and seeks solutions, assists Sarah with the younger parts needs and protection, likes to fix things, competent, steps in to help with housework, does computer uploading, downloading and a variety of the more complex computer processes, is athletic like Jamie, seems to maintain age of oldest “external” son

Anniemi – (five years to 30 years) formal “front” part shown to early school in response to problems with the Casies handling kindergarten, church and home, nervous about the need to be good, not bad, ombudsman, deals with fairness and compromise, negotiations and  complaints, sometimes stutters, tries to study and help, but sometimes it seems with blinders on. Often starts and stops projects out of confusion, is forgetful, easily assumes position of rejection, feels devoted to Sr. Tess and is close to Dear Heart (Annemarie), sometimes suicidal, memory of childhood stories

KC – (four years to 10 years) twin to Casey, rejected sexual abuse as wrong/bad, watches over body systems (hunger, tired, pain, washroom and medications) with Casey, but is more negative and realistic, gets frustrated and angry easy, favorite word is no, collusive, loves ice cream, helpful, feels shame, over responsible for her age, first guardian over early relationships, stopped hugs and kisses from family members, system’s buoy or thermometer

Casey – (four years to 10 years) twin to KC, accepted sexual abuse as self being wanted, watches over body systems (hunger, tired, pain, washroom and medications) with KC, but is more positive and imaginative, usually a porter/portal to meet the youngest parts, naive, talkative, cries easily, loves cookies and will steal food, gets tired faster than others, helpful, feels glee, error on the side of cautiousness, played with neighborhood kids

Anna – (two and a half years to six years) senses danger, holds severe pain, physically abused, Hides face, rocking, and non-communicative, will hide, curls up like Mimi, but usually is guided by Marie, has a sense of mystery, inquisitive, held early relationship with paternal grandmother (non-abusive)

Marie – (two to ageless) –internal self-helper, sense of knowledge, consciousness, understands switches, internal answers and history, never is out by self, but is evident in our rocking, and knows internal needs of system

Gracie – (one and a half years to five years) severe manipulation of genitals makes our body rigid, easily paralyzed and catatonic, hyperventilates, fear, will close down our system (cause minds to disconnect), makes guttural sounds from her throat, weary and fearful, played with neighbor Carol Ann

Crystal – (eight months to four years) inability to breathe, startles, thrashes, autistic, choked by ejaculations, smothered due to screaming, seizure-like, is hyper-alert

Mimi – (three months to three years), inability to hold consciousness, sleepy, calmed by massages, given alcohol to body parts to suckle on and keep quiet

Embry – (0-0 months), the only part of us that died at birth.  Was Mimi’s twin.  Responsible for the Ann’s system of devotion and dedication.  We do things in her name.  She was symbolically buried in 1992(3) near the old tank at Bunker Prairie Park, in MN where we cross-country skied in high school.

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